As Told by Brandt

I don’t have time to do things that are good for me.  I don’t have time to meditate.  I don’t have time to eat well, exercise, and practice self-care.  I don’t have time to make meetings consistently. I don’t have time.  Here is the truth.  I don’t MAKE time.  I don’t make time for myself.  Why?

I have a stressful job.  Shit, most of us do.  I am grieving.  I am trying to care for my family.  Well, so are many people, and they make time.  So, what do I do in a day?  I work, eat, sleep, cry, and I think about my pain.  Wash, rinse, repeat.

I’ve learned, in therapy, about the duality of life.  Things happen, both good and bad, without a consultation of one another.  I went to Chicago, this weekend, because Jacob’s best friend getting engaged.  Her, now, fiancé reached out to me.  I was honored to be there.  I MADE time to be present, proving, that we have the power to MAKE time to be present in our lives. 

I had a great weekend.  I was able to spend time with my close friends and their kids.  I was able to MAKE time to see my friend, Leila Dov, even if it was brief.  I experienced the duality of pain and excitement.  They were not mutually exclusive.  I am learning the true meaning of “and”.  I was happy AND sad.  One had nothing to do with the other. 

Last year, I wouldn’t have been able to witness this.  I wasn’t “there” to be able to be “here”.  Thanks to therapy and understanding, I am able to accept duality, as what it is.  Lori, Jacob’s bestie, is special.  No wonder Jacob and Lori were so close.  Not only are they similar in action, but in life philosophy.  I have no doubt that Jacob was there, using my body as a vessel of his love.

This blog is more a pep talk to myself.  MAKE TIME.  Be present.  Successful people (not just with business) MAKE time.